How was everybody’s Chinese New Year? We had an amazing one. Or at least I did. ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ ) So apparently there was this heated debate on Tiktok about whether it should be CNY or Lunar New Year that I completely missed out. Qyuni my sister told me about it… Seriously these days people care about the least important thing in the world. I’m so glad I’m not involved with Tiktok because half the things I hear from it is just absolutely a waste of time and energy.
The reason why I updated so late after CNY was because I have been busy preparing for my CCT aka completion of training. I’ve finally completed my training for my specialty after SO MANY YEARS. (,,>﹏<,,) I truly don’t regret at all taking this long to finish, despite not having any extension time added to my training. It was because of maternity leave and working less than full time. ¯_(ツ)_/¯ But at the end of the day, it made me a more mature trainee. As my supervisor mentioned 2 years ago when she took me in, her priority was never to improve my clinical knowledge or skills, but more of preparing me to be more resilient to stress and pressure. ( •̯́ ₃ •̯̀) I’m really glad because I feel that with her guidance I am now a more confident person, not just as a doctor. I am able to put down boundaries and to not shy away from difficult conversations. ᕙ( •̀ ᗜ •́ )ᕗ
Last year, CNY was slightly depressing for me. Mojuju never used to celebrate CNY much with his family so it wasn’t really a big deal for him. But it was for my family. Having two very different upbringing was so difficult. But as I have mentioned, I have came a long way from just trying to do everything on my own and then building resentment and burnout, to actually putting down boundaries and have difficult conversations that need to happen. This year we worked so well as a team to get CNY ready ( ꈍ◡ꈍ). We had an amazing reunion dinner on CNY eve – which was customary to my family.
We made the lousang above together, unlike previous years before where I was doing everything myself because he wasn’t sure what to do. We were such a great team <3 seriously. The lousang was SO DELICIOUS because it is literally made with the freshest ingredients you can ever imagined. (Compared to the premade rubbish in a box you get from Malaysia lol). <(ꐦㅍ _ㅍ)>.
For those who doesn’t know, CNY eve night is typically called reunion dinner in Chinese. It is where families from all over the country (not across the country lol) come home to have a meal in their parents home. It’s sad that our parents couldn’t join us, especially when my parents are so hardworking to work throughout CNY week and Mojuju father unfortunately isn’t ready to fly such a distance (we did invite him (╥﹏╥) but it’s okay we will see him soon this year).
I however invited JayJay from work because he was like a brother to me. EVERYONE WANT TO SET UP HIM WITH MY SISTER— I just think it’s not great pushing things… things should happen naturally if it’s meant to be ya know… 𓁹‿𓁹. Anyhow he didn’t have reunion dinner this year so all of us at home felt that the more the merrier!!
