Guyssss I had the best weekend ever my whole life. I MET MY CHILDHOOD SAVIOUR AVRIL LAVIGNE!!!

I finally get to see her in flesh!

I can’t believe it took me 22 years to actually finally meet her. What stopped me for so long? Prioritising everything else… And financial constraints. 😭

I booked the tickets in April when I found out she was going to perform in U.K. again. Unfortunately all other venues were sold out instantly and the only option I had left was Bedford – for 2 tickets as a package with hotel accompanied. I took my sister Qyuni with me because who else can I bring? 🤣☠️

I left Mr. Monday and Princess Tuesday with the childminder because Mojojo wasn’t keen in looking after them the entire weekend (and I don’t trust him managing on his own lol 😑). Thank god the childminder brought the kids to the zoo as well as a ferry ride the next day. I had zero worries about the kids and had zero guilt as well knowing they would also have fun while I had mine. ☺️

I loved the whole journey to the concert. We took a couple of trains to get there; had sushi and great coffee during the train ride. We did miss out our last train due to delay on the connecting train, but luckily there were a bunch of us going to Bedford for the concert so we basically shared a cab with all the strangers 😂. There was this guy who was wearing Avril’s Bite Me concert t-shirt and we basically was following him the whole way in the train station knowing he was going the same concert. (I called him the “Bite me guy” 🤣🤣🤣

The opening of the concert was a pain. The sun was literally burning the hell out of everybody. I think Qyuni was literally dying right Infront of my eyes. ☠️ Good news was, we were actually quite front into the crowd. Bad news was, we were definitely not at the first row 😭

This was how “front” I was. Unfortunately I was standing right behind a family of 6 foot monsters. Good news was they had a lot space in between them so I actually had an amazing view in between them 🤣 My sister was not so fortunate albeit being much taller than I 😝

Thanks to my 4/6 vision (literally superhuman vision as the usual max distance was 6/6 but I can see 2 meters further than all of you peasants), I could actually see Avril SO SUPER WELL!!! like I could literally see her facial features 100% and even clearer than my phone’s zoom in. 😎 Wahahah that’s how amazing my eyes are.

Yeah I mean it’s kinda weird looking back at the photos which looks blurier than what I actually saw with my eyes 🤨

If you didn’t know, I did had quite a challenging childhood and teenage years. Things were terrible between my mother and I and my dad was literally absent have the time working back in another state up north. Things only got worse after my sister was born. TBF I knew I was never mom’s favourite, but I also don’t hold anything against her anymore. Just because we made up and I forgive her for everything doesn’t mean this the hurt is magically gone though… I still curl into a ball and cry soemtimes when memories comes back.

Those days, all I had was my high-school friends who were also a big fan of Avril and the punk rock stars. But Avril always had a special place in my heart. Many nights I’d sing her songs, just to get myself through it. She’s well known for her punkrock like sk8erboi, but those who doesn’t know her tend to overlook her great emotional songs like “I’m with you” and “nobody’s home”.

SO GUESS HOW MUCH I CRIED WHEN SHE SHOWED UP WITH THIS BEAUTIFUL DRESS AND STARTED SINGING ALL THE BALLADS OF HERS?!

fucking I bawled my eyes out when she sang “I’m with you” at the very end😭

I wasn’t so emotional before that when she sang head above water and when you’re gone. But damn when the music started for I’m with you, I told my sis immediately, “don’t judge me but I’m gonna cry like shit” 😂😂😂😂

All in all it was amazing.

I think the concert was a little low energy for Avril, but she just finished Glastonbury and came immediately to Bedford. Also, she’s 39 and has Lyme disease 😭. As a fellow 30s, I’m already impressed with her energy so I think it’s entirely appropriate.

I just wish I could let her know just how much she meant to me. I think I will die happy now. ☠️🥹

It took me 2 days to recover from the fatigue 😭😭😭 and I think I’m still tired lol. I don’t think I’ll ever attend another concert again 😩🤣