I got a really good news to share ❤️❤️❤️ after months of hardwork, Mojuju finally got lots of job offers 🎊. He got his first shift last night which really worried me 😓.

Nevermind that it’s a bit of a drive, it was a full day shift which I thought was pretty harsh of the client. I stayed up late last night to wait for him to come home. He was so tired that he didn’t want me to reheat dinner for him. I left him to unwind in the living room. But at least I could tell that he had a good shift.

Now all is left is for me to start hunting for a job. 😭 I’m torn between doing a salaried permanent job vs locum. If course locum is better paid, but I love being able to settle somewhere and develop the service together as a team. My CV is done and checked by a few senior partners and managers who reassured me that it looked fine. 👌 The only think I’m thinking about is whether I should have a short career break and Mojuju since he is now employed as locum…. I’ll see how I feel after new year I guess.

Mojuju spoke to me about how he disappointed he feels about being underpaid as a registrar while giving all he had for the broken NHS that inevitably made him neglect our family. He felt unappreciated despite all he had done and is now glad to leave NHS to work as locum and being paid appropriately. We had such an emotional conversation about how lonely it had made both of us feel in our relationship.

I guess as a child I always wished for my dad to be more present but he was always having to work overseas and outstation. Mom was always busy trying manage work and the home, and living 11 years before my baby sister came into my life was incredibly lonely. I didn’t want Monday to feel the same. And Tuesday inevitably is the best gift I could ever give Monday – – – although he might think otherwise 🤣🤣🤣🤣 I decided to work only 3-4 full days a week so the kids would rememeber my presence; but Mojuju sadly has always been mentally at work all the time.

Since he is now self employed, he is spending a lot more time with the kids. It’s the first time he cooks with Monday, without arguing with each other 🫠. For the first time in 3 years we actually managed to watch a series together 😭😭 Can you imagine that? I missed him so much, and at one point I felt like I can never get him back. But here he is now, a completely different person!

I always told my colleagues when I was striking for the junior doctor that I wasn’t striking for my own pay, but my husband who is a senior registrar and being paid peanuts for it. (my pay is a lot lesser than his but tbf i don’t work nights or weekends). NHS truly do not value their doctors. My non medical colleagues and junior colleagues are shocked at my pay when they saw my payslip. 🫠 They should be even more shocked at Mojuju’s. He’s paid peanuts if it wasn’t for the nights and weekend shifts.

DDRB recommended 2.3% payrise for next year, while inflation is about 8%-12%. Do you think that’s right? Doctors are working harder than before – and yet unappreciated. They removed free doctors accommodation, removed free childcare, removed free staff parking, and staff discount for cafeteria meals.

Things aren’t looking that good in primary care either. Fundings are being pulled off for a lot of services, and GPs like us essentially are providing it for free (which is going to stop because despite the inflation rate, primary care funding has only increased by 6%). Think about the rental, electricity bills, staff pay checks and medical equipments and cleaning / clinical services. It’s a losing business.

Do we continue to work for a failing service? If it wasn’t for the compassion of all the healthcare workers to work with bare minimum, NHS would have collapsed a decade ago under the conservative. Well not that the Labour is looking very pretty at present.