I am currently having quite a health scare. I basically have been losing so much weight that I was size 10-12 and now I’m size 6! All this happened within a year.

Remember after giving birth to Lil’Tuesday I vow to lose weight? Well… apparently my resolve wasn’t that strong and after probably 3 sessions of jogging and running I turned back into a couch potato. But instead of gaining weight or just having my weight being steady, they began to drop off me like flies!!!

Okay half of you are probably thinking “Oh good for her. Look at her complaining about effortless weight loss…smh”.

WELL NO. Unintentional weight loss is a massive red flag for malignancy aka cancer.

I was finally 50kg and was able to donate blood. Within 2 weeks it continued to drop to below 50kg and I could no longer be eligible for donation anymore!!! T____T

well at least I got to donate my blood at least once in my life…

I even tried on my shorts that I had when I was 18 and you know what… It’s so loose that it’s falling off my hips. DUDE, I WAS ALMOST AS THIN AS A TOOTHPICK WHEN I WAS 18. And now I’m… thinner than that?!??!?!

Why am I so afraid of having cancer — because I have 2 children.

Honestly if it wasn’t for Mr. Monday or Lil’Tuesday I’m seriously not bothered. I have firsthand seen my close friends who suddenly lost their mother living a completely different life than when their moms were there… No one is to be blamed, but I know if auntie was there, she would have wanted them to have a very different growing up experience.

I think what I’m most afraid of is that both Monday and Tuesday are so young… and the chances of them remembering me is so slim. Will they know just how much I love them? Will they know just how much I wish to be with them?

Anyhooooooo I finally got a GP appointment after months of trying. I think it’s because of the new law of GP surgeries not allowed to ask patient to call back another day for appointment…. I’m sure that law is going to break all GP surgeries but I’m just so bloody glad I got an appointment. They sent me for a blood test and immediately after the blood test they rang me telling me that they need to discuss my results face to face….. talk about anxiety — this is not making me feel any better.

No one should be losing this much weight by … sitting around.

I really hope I’m just another stupid hypochondriac ._.!!

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